was jus trying to help when i somehow feel tat instead of helping
i get misunderstood
sometimes i wan to give my opinion bt ther are times when i don have the right
as i once did do the same thing
i was in the wrong
i don deny it
bt i hope that tis kind of misunderstanding dont happen again
i don wan it to be the cause

10:31 PM;
won't be left ALONE

today's schedule was very packed. morning was vb. then trained le da dui. play until 1+ in the afternoon. then went canteen slacked a while b4 goin hm coz had to go n visit my aunt as we haven went there yet. so when i gt hm. they say not at hm then no need go le. wth. i rush hm then u say no need go le. nvm. so ate the 7vegetable dish then left hse le. tot could onli go aft night bt a change of plan mant i could leave earlier.

then took 17 to tamp there then change to 29 to take into changi. then alighted le walk wif shan into lena hse. it was packed wif ppl everywhere. went up n 5 of them together wif clar was alrd ther le. then played poker n chatted. then had dinner. after dinner was green tea n after tat was beer n whiskey mixed wif coke(thx ben) haha. so after tat took bus to tm to watch epic movie. after the movie went back to inter where yiyan went hm n the rest of us went back to lena's hse.

went up to the rm. we chased the kids out n we started to blanket party. lena was 1st followed by clar n then shan2. after playing. we took the vodka n went to the playground to drink. all except jessie n jiaqi. coz they were tired so they slpt in the room. drank till abt 12+ then went back. went to the back n ate cake n dumpling which lena's mother personally made. nice nice!! then we went upstairs n once again chased the kids out. then we played poker until 2.30 when clar had to go. then we slacked around n did nth. then i fell aslp on the floor.

when i woke up. jiewei was gone le. n every1 was slping on the floor. it was 7+ le n couldnt go back to slp. so sat up n thought abt things tat happened recently. released alot of things. then slowly each 1 woke up. except for lena jessie n shan1. then watched tv until 11. then went down stairs to sing. at abt 11+. sis called n i had to go. n guess wat i had to go 4. i had go for dim sum lunch. hais so left lor. then after lunch watched epic movie again. then fell aslp halfway.

hais. shall stop here. veri sian le.
ther are certain parts nt mentioned as i just don feel like mentioning

8:15 PM;
won't be left ALONE

hais. east zone is finally over today. wasnt doin hw for the past wk plus2. aft trg ytd. went to tam ther to look for present to buy. was slowly draging my feet around to look for suitable thing to buy. finally bought them n headed for hm. reached hm at 9+ almost 10. great. left so little time to do anything. so did those impt things then took out my hw. in the end. it was left there till i woke up in the morning untouch.

then today after the match. wanted to go hm. then after thinking. decided to go wif xida to stadium to do nth there. was slacking there until almost 6. then wanted to go walk2. so went cs to look for xiuxiu n zhao xuan they all. they were buying gifts for tml. met them n walk ard. n soon they wanted to go hm le. so went wif clar to meet shan n gang. then went mac to slack again. then at 8. finally decided to go hm. so went to take 81. was hoping the bus ride would be slow. bt it was super fast. hais. maybe it is made to be like tat.

tml is valentine's day. n guess wat. xida wans to train tml. hais. there goes my plan for tml. maybe goin to leave early. see how then decide.

sabrina. i bought ur present le. n be glad its nt a pencil.

lastly. happy birthday camilia

10:00 PM;
won't be left ALONE

one month have past since the start of tis schooling year. this past month have been a total let down of myself.

first there was skool. most of the teacher were quite ok except for 1. nvm tat. then ther is tests coming n gone. already did 3 n gt back 2 of them. was hoping tat i will pass my chinese bt it turn out otherwise. i nt onli failed bt veri badly. hais. to think tat i still spent time listening during chinese lessons n even revised bt i still failed. maybe i should really consider slping thru lesson n see wat my results will be.

then ther is maths at stake here. jus took a.maths test today. may fail. n if pass the mark also will be veri low. then ther is e.maths which i seriously wan to kill myself over. nvr in my whole skooling years have i gotten a b n below for maths except for one or two b3s. bt tis time for the test i gt a freaking b4. ITS A B4. WTH. to think tat i used to nt study n can easily get 70+ or 80+. bt since wat past cannot be changed. shall look towards the future n pay more attention in class.

bt the thing tat i find really stupid is i don understand some part of polynomials. bt i still can teach others the chapter until they understand. hais seriously dunno wat i am doin n thinking.

certain days i dun seem to even know myself as i will just sit there n think abt stuff n day dream. n i always feel like slping even after slping the whole day. bt despite all these things happening to me. ther is still an unforgettable even.
SEC 3 CAMP
shall post some other day abt it.

bt for now. shall try nt to keep on wasting time on slping n rotting. like somebody once told me. time lost can nvr be gained back. spent ur time wisely so as nt to regret after it is lost.

8:56 PM;
won't be left ALONE