exams jus startd recently. and the eng, geog n mt paper1 are over. it jus seems like the road is still goin down. hais. been trying to study bt nth seems to go in. dunno wats wrong also.

next paper coming up is chem n emaths 1. then on tues is amths n ss. how am i goin to sit for the exams when everything cant go in. guess all of u will probably noe the result.

anyway.

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went out for a planned study. bt reached there ard 3. they were still eatin. then after that started. i tried chem. couldnt go in. then i tried emaths. neither could it go in. wtf. like tat how to take exams. then was like was like wasting my time there. then after tat we went walking around tm. then went open plaza there sit n talk crap. then saw siying n siuming. then went cs to eat. didnt felt like eatin so didnt eat. then went wif siuming n siying to go tncc ther meet others. then went sun plaza ther sit down n talk awhile. then i left soon after.



hias. this is a crppy post. fuck it lar. nth seems to be goin on rite

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nth much to post for today lar.
jus want to apologise to u for nt being able to pei-ing u jus now

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the whole day in school seem to went by like a breeze today. bt maybe its due to the meeting wif cai lao shi in the afternoon ba. nth much really happened in class today lar. at 2.30, met cai lao shi and went into the hod room and had a talk wif her. she said she onli had time till 3.30. so it was rather fine. found her words really true and factual. bt since i sort of like gave her my word. i would try and make it.

then waited for u after tat and went to interchange to take bus. u arh. hungry better eat k. bt end up alighting 1 stop earlier. went to buy bread to eat. then walked wif u hm le then i went off. was planning to go hm bt when 65 came. i tot i would go to the library. went there and there was nothing. so went hm after tat. went to central to buy some stuff to eat. then i was thinking about all those things tat all those ppl said to me while walking n eating. before i knew it. i was hm.









maybe wat all of u said were true. i wouldnt have knew it if all of u didnt have told me. and also i mus thank some of u teachers who spent ur time talking to me despite ur busy schedule. and also to the teacher who trust n believe that i can do it.

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its mother birthday today. so Happy Birthday MOM.

due to last nite's late slp. i woke up at 11 tis morning. then showered before leaving the house. went to sakae for luch. eat till i was partically bloated. hahas. but tats wat u get from eating for 2hr++. then went to this fashion as my sis had some kind of discount. so i gt myself 2 shirts. then went back to plaza sing as mom needed to buy something. then i went to times want-ing to read jap performance. bt they didnt have it ther. so was browsing thru the other mag. then we left ther and went to cheveron ther for bowling. didnt really bowled well. and my wrist was hurting after tat.

and after tat super heavy lunch. everyone was super shocked when i said i was still HUNGRY. gahaha. so we went bukit timah there for dinner. i ate while they simply had some small bites. and we went home after tat. then showered le talked for awhole before goin to slp.

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there was tis chemistry extra lesson in school today and it was at 9. imagine how much sleep i would have enjoyed after last nite concert n dinner. sighs. bt i still managed to make it on time.

when i reached there were barely 5 people there. we were using 3a2 classroom for the lesson and we had to clean up and arrange their classroom for them as it was in a big mess. wth bt nvm since we are nice ppl. we did jus tat and sat down while waiting for the rest to come. the 2 hours past by veri fast. and soon it was 11 alrd.then waited around before going to kfc to eat.

then after eating. yiyan jiewei n i left first as they were meeting seng to teach her maths and i had to go for my doctor appointment after missing the thur session. the rest were jus starting to eat when we left.

took 25 before changing to 65. went there and everything finish veri quickly also. and my leg wasnt wrapped up today also. hahas. then took 23 back to tamp. i felt bored when i reached tamp. so called seng they all to check if they were still ther. end up they were still there so i jus went over ther to join. tot i would be slacking alike normal. end up i took out paper and i under the part on proving equations. then after jiewei went off. we stopped stding and started eating. then seng wanted to go and buy wrapper for her boy present. so yiyan went arcade and he happened to bump into ms cheng. lol.

anyway. we went to cs and tm to look for it and decided on the one at tm. then we walked awhile before jessie came. after walking around for awhile more we decided to go hm as it was 6+ alrd. they took 67 and i went off after tat. took 81 hm and fell aslp again bt luckily onli 1 stop tis time. so went hm and after eating. lie on my bed and i acually fell aslp. in the end i woke up at 1+ . then i went to showe before watching tv outside. didnt wanted to slp de. bt end up nth to watch on the tv so went to slp at ard 4+. hahas

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today was just like any other schooling days except today went by in a rush. early in the morning i woke up late. so took a train to school. then lessons went by in a breeze also. then last 2 periods were ace subsituted by engish and we have a test. didnt know wat i was writing also. on the highway to failure. then after tat was the e maths test coz i missed it on thur. then after that was so bored in school. so slacked around till abt 2.30. left school for the interchange.

waited till abt 3.15 before u came. at around 3.30 when we were about to bored the bus. my ezlink could work again. tot maybe the machine have problem. so didnt really bother abt it. then it happened again when i was about to go hm. so went straight to pasir ris interchange. guess wat. my card corrupted again. and its like the 5th or 6th ezlink i have changed in less then 3 years. hahas.then i rushed hm. was late by the time i reached hm. so rushed through every thing and left hm. boreded the 17 when it arrived and i tot i was late wheni reached school. end up i wasnt the latest.

so we boreded the bus and went there. went inside to watch the concert 'pictures of passon' first half was quite boring, and the way siying and sui ming slp inside was veri gay. then in the middle there was a 20 mins break. was playing around outside. then when we went back. we shifted down as i actually wanted to sit wif my bestbest friend and jiewei wanted to move down. so the 8 seats(siying n suiming were late) behind were left for a couple. then end up bestbest friend was also late. boo. bt the second part was nt bad.

then after it ended, we boreded back to same bus for school. bt while waiting for the bus to move off. our class was laughing n taking pictures of someone from 3/4. it was the joke of the whole day man. everyone in the bus was laughing away. then went back to school. and decided to go wif seng baoshan jessie arina jiewei yiyan and edison for dinner as its been quite long since i went out wif them. hen after eating went to interchange to take 18 to tamp wif then and 21 hm after tat. by te time i reached hm was alrd 12++ le. so showered le then talked a while before going to bed.





and mother. i will be guai and i wont touch him


and also my tots came true. i had a veri long talk wif my mom till it was abt 1 before i went to slp.



and i blogged le. XP

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dunno y bt i can jus simply sense the disappointment they hae in me. i beloved some of then ahd high hopes in me n i let them down. perhapswat jenny said was true. over the span of 3 months when she wasnt around. i have changed alot. there is a big difference between now and then.

everything including vb n studies hasnt been on the right track it seems and it has been easily falling down the slope while now trying to bring it all back up is hard n it wouldnt be accomplished without determination.

an example would be like wat jenny said. i might have alrd fallen to the bottom. and in order for me to advance back. i will have to put in alot of effort. and all i noe now is tat my whole mind is upside down in a mess.

it jus seem as thou for the first time i felt so stressed and helpless about myself. i am really starting to feel everything all coming to me at once. it jus simply feel so stress and

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ok. today is one of the worst day and it just cant seem to get any worst.

original plan for today was to try my best for the emaths test. and after school go to see doctor abt my leg at 3.30. then after tat then go lavender to buy some stuff nd go hm afer that. this was the original plan.

the actual event that happened was like tis.
during recess we went to talk some stuff wif some guy lar. then we ended up being late for maths. so when we went into class. he told us to stand outside. after abt five minutes mr ow came up. and he came up coz mr neo INVITED him to. so we went downstairs to the office. surrendered our ezlink n fones. then cleanthe canteen n sat outside the office to write a reflection. then as i was sitting there. someof the teachers who walked by would jus asked me wat happened n have a short talk. i dunno y bt i could sense their disappointment in me. then after awhile. we went in to call our parents one after the other. and filled in a beta form and i tink its my second in the whole of m secondary life lo. then we were told to do our own studing outside.

so i jus sat there and tried to study bt i dunno y, it jus cant seem to enter. at ard 3, we each took turns to go and have our lunch for 10mins. then when i was sitting back ther after that. i was relived when jenny came and we went for counselling. had quite a long talk wif her. was able to expressed out some unhappiness and problems in the process.

by the time we finish was abt 4.35 and so i went back and sat down. at 5, mr ow came out to release us.

then i went to lavender to get some stuff. and i had no choice bt to cancel the doc appointment. after getting the stuff. i simply tried to take any bus which i feel that is worth taking. ended up taking 4 buses to get frm there to tamp when i onli needed 2. then went to donavan hse to jus use the sissors to trim my fringe. and now its damm short lo. then sing k at his house awhile b4 goin hm.

bt i can predict tat later i am goin to have a veri long talk(hope) wif my parents.

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hahas. i shall update today k.

today way quite a long day even thou lessons were until 1.50 still. was maths the veri first period so probably tats the reason y the day seems to feel so long. partly was also due to the dumb flu which started last nite. and it continued coz i forgot to take the med. dumb shit. made the toilet felt like my best friend for the second half of the day after my tissue ran out.

after maths was chinese. the flu was seriously affecting me alot. ther was something like a short test which i didnt do at all. hahas. come to tink of it now. it feels really bad. ok. in the middle of it all. mr neo wanted to see me in 4e6 classroom. then talked about the thing tat happened the fay before. then went back to class for lesson after tat. then was recess after tat which wass when something bad happened. we were eating as usual as a whole big group. and it didnt feel rite when i saw mr ow in the canteen. so while we were eating. he walked by and everyone not a single one short was asked to cut their hair. he even toolk down our names n fone number. joke rite. bt quite dumb lo.

then was ace as mrs tan changed eng to fri whereby we will have the eng test. so we were talking abt the officer who broke up n stole the rifle. it was something like 2 periods of jokes.
ther were ppl saying he was wearing an underwear n carrying th rifle in orchard. and after that was some chat about ppl of wat age should u go steady wif. while everyone noe the obvious answer was somewhere around ur age. someone jus had to say younger. and it was drag onto ppl who are in k1. joke of the day man. then we did some work n it was chem. nt much lar. learnt abt oxidising states. quite easy to grasp hold of.

then after the period b4 maths we went to the toilet to settle some stuff. ended up being late for maths. then after maths. was slacking around outside. nth much to do. then decided to go hm lo. so went library to return the mag then went hm.

now at hm. so tired lo. today was a crappy day lar. bt at least i under the maths partly.

hmm. i blog le leh.



i hope u see tis lar hor. u better watch wat u fucking to lar. i gine day u will for sure get it de lar hor

6:26 PM;
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today also sotsot woke up at 8+.then watched tv all the way till 11+. then mum woke up and told us that we had to help out at the charity even at vivo city which her company was sort of like sponsering. and we had to reach the at 12! dumb ass. so rush a bit and went down there. reached ther le. we were told tat we can make anything we want using the things ther. so i make some stuff. which wasnt sold sadly. bt my bro, sis and her stead made some thing which were so very nice. shall post the pictures some other time.

then after getting bored of doin that as i didnt have any idea. so i went to make 'stress balls'. which involves using a bottle head and puting a balloon onto the mouth piece and putting flour thru it. hahas. had fun doin it. there are also some pictures. made quite a few and the smiley face 1 sells super well. it was gone within an hour. ppl mus have liked the design. quite cute lar. then had burger king for lunch as coupons were given. and the last time i ate it was like 3 years ago leh. hahas. then at around 7+ we left. wah. if can get cip hour then shiok le. i was at the charity event working for abt 7 hours leh. then after that went to white sands for dinner. went to popular to buy some things then went hm. took bus hm as my aunt borrowed the car to settle some stuff. then now i am at hm bloging lo. hahas. goin shower soon le.

bleh. i blog le hor. u arh. every time say will blog bt also never de. hahas. u better faster go and blog arh. hahas

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hahas. ok. today is teachers day. so happy teachers day to all teachers. tis morning woke up at 8+ for dunno wat reason and i slacked till 9+ after i showered. then went o watch tv use the computer at the same time. after awhile, i decided to off the tv as i wasnt watching n it was sort of like wasting electricity. then all the way till 12 i was using my comp n switch to go watch tv after that.

then went out at 2+ to go meet somene at the library. reached there awhile onli go already. hahas. then went to tm popular and buy some stuff. and so jus happen to meet weixin and friends. after tat walked to cs to walk2 awhile bought some stuff le then went to take bus. sry k. couldnt stay any longer as i gt to go for my doctor appointment.

then after u went hm. dad was nice to come and fetch me there. the doctor as usual jus massaged my leg n used a infared machine on me. then put medicine n wrap le and i am done. then waited for dad to finish and went hm. then had dinner and dad bought us tao hui(tou hua) after he fetched mum. so ate that n went to bed.

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