dunno y bt i can jus simply sense the disappointment they hae in me. i beloved some of then ahd high hopes in me n i let them down. perhapswat jenny said was true. over the span of 3 months when she wasnt around. i have changed alot. there is a big difference between now and then.
everything including vb n studies hasnt been on the right track it seems and it has been easily falling down the slope while now trying to bring it all back up is hard n it wouldnt be accomplished without determination.
an example would be like wat jenny said. i might have alrd fallen to the bottom. and in order for me to advance back. i will have to put in alot of effort. and all i noe now is tat my whole mind is upside down in a mess.
it jus seem as thou for the first time i felt so stressed and helpless about myself. i am really starting to feel everything all coming to me at once. it jus simply feel so stress and
