i am suddenly relieved that i came to see something and understand it. it seem so late but however true it is. would anyone ever see it coming their way.
having term test this whole week. today is the fourth day into it with another paper left to go tml. and i havent even started studying for it. what a great thing to be doing janus. for the past four days i dont even know what i am doing. it is a term test yes i do know. but whenever i step into the exams hall. i feel nothing else except a feeling of empty-ness in myself. i wasnt even confortable doing the paper for all four days except today. everyday when i hear the examiner saying put down your pen. my heart felt like crushing to the ground. why.............
i know that i am simply going to fail the paper. i have got no one to blame. studying but not studying hard enough. paying attention but not to your fullest. the only paper that i finally that i could have done was screwed up by me again. there was only four question but i still couldnt finish it. i felt i had it but failing to finish it dented myself even more. great...
what more the paper coming up tml is my worst of them all. so what if i have gpa of 3.75 for the first semester only for it to drop down only after another one semester more. such a failure.
somehow i can feel as though my mind filled with everything is going to explode.
but still i have to live on. still have to be positive.
i am being random today. whoever is reading this dont mind me.
i am releveed that i have worried for nothing...
