Shouldn't that be something well thought out in majority of the people's mind?? Well.. I did thought that I know what I want in my life.. Not least till the past weekend.. I knew I was thinking a lot.. But didn't know that it was so much for this past few days.. 

Let's just start with work.. I thought it was pretty dumb and rash to sign on.. But I did it and came to accepted it.. After some time to say quite frankly I find what I was doing quite to my liking and it really wasn't that bad.. But is it really what I like ma?? Night shift used to be something I like and look forward to.. Now it just feels very mundane.. The fun and love I use to feel just suddenly seem to vanish.. To say it bluntly.. I used to think that there might just. Be a chance I would stay here for long.. Maybe all the way.. But now I just feel like I can't wait to leave.. Not even contemplating taking the money.. Ohwell.. But this really isn't as bad as this seem..

Looking forward.. Two weeks into the new year I would be able to say I have lived 22 years of my life.. But it just doesn't feel like I have lived to the way I can.. To the fullest!! I haven't achieved anything in my life.. What happened over the weekend made me think not because I am regretting it but rather made me think what I have been doing with my life.. What happened was really something special which I have felt in years.. Really would like to thank her for that very moment.. Etched in my mind.. 

I really don't know what to look forward to everyday and just simply live everyday as it comes.. I somehow think I am still pretty capable in a fucked up way cause I can somehow always manage to make my bestest friend pissed and heel so helpless.. Really sorry if you do see this.. 

Speechless.. 

Fuckedup..